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Mon, Jan. 19th, 2015, 11:45 am
No doubt that miracles happen.

I witnessed a miracle yesterday; Seahawks putting 15 pts up in 44 seconds- Lightning! then to win in OT. I was screaming and crying with mom, it was amazing! I still can't believe it that we are going to the big dance again in February. Cried and cried tears of joy. I am not even the biggest football fan; the seahawks over the past 2 years have become everyone's favorite, girls included. I can't recall ever seeing so many girls at the games or at the bars cheering them on. Its a miracle.
This was such a great weekend! I went to lunch with Rachel on Saturday at the Tasters wok and discovered that she is also trans! i am so surprised that I hadn't figured that out before. I gained a really wonderful friend and support system by meeting her. I am grateful to OK cupid (again) for bringing positive change for my life, in spades. She is so lucky, was able to keep her wife and her wife is training to do electrolysis for her. I had those dreams with Tracy, I will always wish that it had worked out for us.
Anyway, its too late for that, and I have more wonderful friends in my life now that I would not have ever had if I would have stayed with Tracy. I would not have ever met Laura... oh I can hardly wait to see Laura again.
also I am getting my Burning Man tickets in the next month! woot!

Thu, Jan. 15th, 2015, 08:43 am
Houses of the Holy

I can't remember a time before where I was anxiously awaiting the sun rising earlier and summer. This winter hasn't been terrible, I don't understand. At least I have some things in the near future to look forward to; Hawaii for one. Burning Man for another.
Anyway, tonight will be exceptional; I'm going to Ill-Esha with Jeff and Lisa.
we can watch the white doves go...
Hawaii.. oh my, it's going to be such an adventure with Laura. I can only imagine what her place is like. What I'm most excited with is exploring the island with her, although she is likely familiar with most of it. Maybe I can find something that is new to her? it is only 36 days away.
It's another day at work, almost to 25 years.

Wed, Nov. 12th, 2014, 10:13 am
SF and OKC

New day, different feelings, different thoughts. So I went to San Francisco over the weekend. It was awesome, I stayed with Cynthia. We had so much fun, I ate my way across the city and into Berkeley. It was so warm and pretty i cant wait to return. I got back Monday night.
Last week before I left, I started talking to this wonderful woman named Robin. She is a PI and lives in renton. We wrote for a couple days straight and talked on the phone. I was in stars. I wanted to meet up with her on thursday night at nectar.. i had plans with J and Lisa to see Wax Tailor... so she had to go to portland all of a sudden so I missed her. And she had said that we could meet up this week when I return... only thing is she wont reply to me anymore. And she took down her OKC profile... so I am sad. I really wanted to meet her.
on the bright side, I did get a note from Ellie May on Monday night! she said she was sick and her father passed away is why I didnt get to see her and didnt get replies for 5 weeks!!! FIVE.
I am feeling like this dating BS is just that. I really want to have a good relationship, and its SO HARD to meet someone nice with integrity. It makes me feel crazy.

Tue, Oct. 21st, 2014, 08:29 am
These 5

SO there are 5 girls that are vying for my attention right now, and I'm making notes to help me keep track.
First there is Tracy... she lives in Burien, is 5-3, has incredibly long arm hair. has a job doing some type of marketing, spends a lot of time with her family. Is okay looking, not gorgeous, but she is nice enough.
second is Rachel, she lives in Mukilteo, works at boeing, has a motorcycle, might be married, works second shift. likes to go bike riding. Is moderately pretty but I only have a couple photos. She is also my same age.
Third is Zap, I dont know her real name yet, she is 56? lives in Hawaii, but travels all the time to this area, has lived in san francico, is generally quite worldly, has a home in hawaii and I dont know what she does for work but may be retired. She is quite pretty for being 10 years older than I.
and then there is Julianne, the one that K cheated on me with but doesnt see anymore. She is really cute, a little bigger but shorter than I, has a good job, has a nice family that she spends a lot of time with, likes good food, etc. I talk to these 4 every day right now.
And then Sara, whom I chose as my friend one night at the anchor pub. She just clicked with me. She is young, maybe 32? irish - mexican, has 2 young kids, has dated women, but is currently dating some guy... he isnt around all the time.
I talk to her every day. we are going to the movies this week, she is the most promising to me so far. She is really cute too and knows sign language.
I dont know what happened to Ellie May,
She seems to have disappeared off the face of the earth, sad.

Thu, Jun. 5th, 2014, 01:04 pm
Mothers day - I am done with you!

Well most everything has been fucked up lately. Ever since mothers day i have been fighting with K (or not fighting actually, as ive been getting the silent treatment) up until yesterday when i finally got a reply to the million notes i sent, but said she was too busy to talk, will call later... which turned out was still too busy... but i digress, i have been feeling sad and broken without her, like that part of me died. I got kicked out of her place on may 7 before moms day as she was upset that i was going to see my mom on her day - sunday. She was invited to come along, but this wasn't good enough for her as (i think) she expected me to wait on her all day. I don't understand that at all, and i told her she wasn't my mom and i needed to go see mine. SO, she insulted me over and over again. I told her i am sorry and i am going to go until you are more sensible. She sent me some more hateful notes when i got home, but said she was 'done' with me (she has said this before) so i felt really awful, tried to apologize, was still really upset and hurt... and this has gone on now for almost a month. I try to talk with her everyday. miss her like crazy.

Tue, Apr. 8th, 2014, 01:25 pm
and in the summer we shall...

So this week is going to be relaxing and normal (!) compared to the last month of crazy, traveling, packing and moving, teaching kids how to drive, etc; i am so ready to chill with the kittens and watch some good tv, build some Lego, spring clean the babe-pad. Last night I started to watch 'Bates Motel' which is quite good, i can tell its shot in BC Canada, and i like that about it. Its a good one so far, only watched 3 episodes. Ive been catching up on the Walking Dead, which may be one of the best shows ever... (mind you i love zombies and survival horror) and playing some good old PS3 too.
The weather is finally starting to improve here so i can get my cars clean and have some fun with the charger now that the sun is still out when i get home from work!
I'm working on some plans for the summer today since i have the eagle vision to do so. Going to Roslyn for a day at least, in early June to explore, look at the town and have a drink at the Brick. I'm wanting to go to San Francisco again soon, maybe in july? it will be hot but oh so nice. I know that the legal weed stores here in WA open in July too, so am planning some kind of weed/bakery tour of the eastern half of this state with the Empress... Summer is almost here!

Wed, Feb. 12th, 2014, 01:54 pm
is this the end of the beginning?

or the beginning of the end? I love Ozzy lyrics so much! it's been a crazy week here in seattle in review the seahawks win the super bowl for the first time ever, a million people pack into downtown seattle on a beautiful day and stop traffic, productivity for hours. it's awesome to see that kind of support. Once in a lifetime i would say, wish my dad were alive to see it (although i know he was so happy in spirit!)
In super exciting news, im going to Disneyworld florida next month! my girlfriend K is going to be attending a conference and invited me to tag along, and the best part is i get to just relax, and read, enjoy the sun!
And i desperately am needing some warm temps and sunshine. I feel this winter is starting to depress me and thats hard to deal with once it starts.
Im taking tomorrow off and going to see the Lego movie with Jeff.

Fri, Jan. 31st, 2014, 10:59 am
I will fall for you, Black Moon, your beauty is interdimensional

I am at work today and it is a sea of blue and green here, seahawks jerseys and 12 flags are everywhere! Its so amazing that everyone is so behind the team for once, of course it is the Superbowl... it's been a long time coming! my dad would be so proud. I went to see him on wednesday and brought him flowers. He paid me back in kind as my mom found a cigar box full of collector coins for me to sort through.
ive been in strain heaven this week with four different strains! its been a good week for the herbs :)

Tue, Jan. 28th, 2014, 08:51 am
woot! bag o crap

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Thu, Dec. 5th, 2013, 12:36 pm
who is this?

what is the deal with so many black girls hitting me up on zoosk? i must be a black chick ideal in some way... weirdness. It cracks me up sometimes.
So this has been a crazy month! so busy doing something most everyday, and too much work not enough play as jack torrance would say. I love that movie by the way.
Thanksgiving was pretty much ideal this year. K took her and the kids to oregon and i got to stay home and work, party with jeff, do solo things around the house and smoke a lot of weed, play a lot of GTA.
At least i feel i got it out of my system for awhile; until christmas break.
K has been pretty nice to me the past couple weeks. I did tell her that i didnt appreciate our relationship being judged every goddamned day like im on hells kitchen or something. i always feel like im going to get kicked out whenever i get into bed with her, its a phobia. i would like for that to stop and told her it needs to for at least, i dont know, forever?
if she wants to be my girl that is.
and I've been watching a boat load of Doctor Who again because it makes my brain feel good when i do.
So tonight I'm taking it easy, J is coming up after work and we are going to BobaKhan to look at the new superhero toys and maybe get more lego figures. its a good plan. we will get super baked and listen to comedy bang-bang makes for a perfect afternoon.

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